A life lesson I learnt.

I read kak's blog and all pictures she took are so nice! Real good one. Atleast for me :) *clap clap*
They even went for a trip to take pictures, I mean road trip. Driving a car to Kudat or somewhere else.
*envy envy*

I always dream to have such kind of life.
Go for travelling without any worry, backpacking with a camera and a journal.
taking pitures and writing.
I always want to go back to NewZealand and I told myself I will be there again with a rent car and start a road trip with my camera when I was there last time.
There was actually a place where no building, only a big big field (probably there's no ending. lol) with a little hill there, it is actually for the university students to do the star-gazing, of course they are doing the subject about starss but I forgot what that subject called already. Nvm.
I was thinking in the bus, omg, I'm so going to go there again! Stay there for a night and do the star gazing.
And and and..  don't know why, the sky in NZ seems nearer to the earth. One night when I got a real huge fight with parents then I couldn't sleep well and woke up at 5am. I walked out to the balcony, and I look at the sky.
Omg!! I can remember clearly, the moon was so big and the stars were so clear. I feel like I can touch them. It was so near. With the cold weather and the silence with a little sea breeze (actually there is no sea, is a huge lake).
I really felt like catching the moment down with my camera or sitting down and start to do my writing.
But sadly, my camera was not able to shoot star view not really even for the moon.
So, I told myself! when I get a real good camera and I will go to NZ again. Stay there for some time without worrying anything and start to write something or shooting. 
Hahahaha (let me imagine abit lah)
Btw, can good camera actually take a really clear starry sky?

But sometimes we always need to face the reality.
I always can't let go of so many things.
Wth.
But I promise to myself, maybe few years later, I must have the real life.

I heard a Dj in the FM saying about the book wrote by 林夕, if i'm not mistaken.
And I really like it.
It's about 8 个小时工作， 据说需要8 个小时睡眠， 只剩下几个小时的生活。And he went on something which I forgot, but from my understanding he means where is the life? and we still have to consider about others feeling when we are living, we almost have no life. and then he went on to quote someone's words which I feel it's really really true. I forgot the quote damn.
But let me conclude it, he kind of means that we have not enough time to live our own life, then why we have to bother and consider others' feeling who don't even care about us, 为什么我们要顾及太多人的感受， 为什么要顾及一些连我们的死活也不关心的人的感受？And I think it's true, we should care more about persons who really love us and we love instead of persons not important in our life.
Then I started to think, who should I care about? My parents, him, and some of my real friends who really care about me, at least for me they really care about me. And I actually can feel who is really care about me and who is not. 
I should stop making myself feeling miserable by caring others too much besides those who really care about me.
Yea, maybe I'm selfish, but am I wrong?
I rather put more of my time to pursue my dreams and care about some others who don't even got the love from people. I always hope to go somewhere to help out some helpless people. 

Omg, I m emo again.
Well, sometimes emo a little is good i think. Hahah..